Current Standings

You would think that after 3 weeks away from work I would have mellowed and relaxed. Yeah right. I have had time to reflect on things and it is funny but I keeping ending on the same question I've been struggling with for over 30 years. For you old DD players and religious type I'm a good person, perhaps chaotic at times. I don't lie, steal or cheat. I befriend folks in need and in general I'm helpful and would give away my last dollar. This isn't because I have any great belief in Heaven and all of that crap. I just find it makes me feel good to be a good person. The problem is to live in the US society you can't be that way. Hell I don't know maybe all of western culture is like this? In the US, capitalism is king. You need to hustle, scam and be a player. This it true from 8 ballers up to MBA's, it sucks. I know to be successful, in the US, that is the way it is. It just turns my stomach. Part of the reason I quit my job. If I have to be a cut throat asshole I need/must get more than monetary satisfaction out of it. I have the mental HP to do it I just don't have the constitution to do it and be happy. I remember realizing in the 4th grade that it is the way it is and crying about it. Being smart and perceptive has its own problems at a young age. Even still I fell into that get an education be a worker capitalism crap. Remember the wealthy needs workers, and the poor, to be rich. Because you can't have either one without the other. The above is old history and fact. I now there must be another way? WHAT IS IT?. That is the question and the search. I'm not going back, but I don't know where to go? The hunt is on. I think I know where to look. I don't think it is in the material/physical realm.

Enough, peace out

Party in Seattle

It is on.

I will be in the VI 10/5 thru 10/25. Sara and BF are kewl once again. 10/15 IS SARA'S BIRTHDAY - Party for sure. Then a week in Seattle. Basically a party in Seattle for Halloween. E-mailed Dennis, lil Bro, Cousin Ed. Need to find Malcat. Lil Bro has a Reggae band.

SHOUT IT, SHOUT IT, SHOUT IT OUT LOUD

I'm Free - In Pursuit of Royalties

I am getting there, was on the River with the old boss. Saturday was a gorgeous day but, no fish. Rode down to Soldotna with Dad on Friday and been sitting on my ass drinking beer chillin with da folks. Both mom and pops are in their 70’s. Mom cracked up wrt painting, royalties and water colors. “OK son you really never could draw so what is the next plan”. I still think I can make a play on abstract work if I paint w/o my glasses. Man I do get inspired. The sun on the Kenia River was soooo pretty with the dark green of the spruce trees, the deciduous tress are turning so there were pale greens and yellows also. In Alaska, at least in south central, very few of the tall trees leaves turn red or orange. We get those colors vividly but they occur low to the ground on the bushes and shrubs. See I did think about painting some of this he he. Next post – The TRIP?

Night out with da TOM SISTERS

I wanna live with a cinnamon girl.... I could be happy, the rest of my live with a cinnamon girl.

Went out with three ofthe Tom sister's last Thursday. It was a blast just to watch the family dynamics and petty competition. I had such a ball. They are AK natives,Yupik eskimos from the northwest villiage of Stebbins. All are thin and attractive. OK not your western TV norm model typebutvery exotic good looking. NOT Strack sisters from Manley, AK goregous but still pretty hot women. Note to self - Never ever take all three out at the same time again. (repeat that three times)

I have known Janice for years and we're good friends, met little sisters Ann and the oldest sister Dee about two years ago. Dee is awesome, my fav. fourth sister Jessica is prego and didn't hang with us. First went bowling with Dee & Ann, then we picked up Janice and their cousin. Hung out at a karokee bar and shot pool. NO G-Daddy don't sing karokee. It was an evening of good times.

Anyway as that dude Sendak would say,"Let the rumpus begin!!!" More fun to come! last day of work is Wednesday.

My Lil Corporate Chronicles

The end of this career is near....WoooHooo

Here is news.
Folks after almost twenty years (15 at the firm) I’m tired of HVAC design. It is no longer fun and quite frankly I’m getting fairly grouchy. Almost daily I suppress the urge to tell a client or two to “take a hike”. Yeah like that is really the language I’d use. I don’t have a plan, I don’t have a fortune stashed I just know it is time to leave before I kill myself. Anyway my last day at "the Firm" is Aug 31. I plan to have a party to celebrate sometime in September not sure when? But I’ll let everyone know.
Proceed fearlessly

It feels sooooo good. I can't believe I'm almost finished with the design career. It is so funny most of my friends get it. The remaining engineers (only 4) are deeply concerned. Charlie got me a job interview... my back promtly went out had to miss it. The body rejected the concept. Brad thinks I need a break and then perhaps oil industry work will suit me.....NOT. JP queried me about my plans and then conducted a verbal interrogation to determine my mental state...I pass as sane... ha, I still can pass it off. I'm sure my call to Fahad will be more of a JP type inquisition, but hey it takes a pencil geek to know one. The best quotes are as follows: Brooke, " you're not quiting your graduating" Jay," you quit first you win". I can't believe I agonized about the money I never got, it don't mean shit.

OK enquiring minds what to know what is the plan. Well I didn't want to make a list. I did it in secret (hell give me a break 25 years as an engineer, at leastI didn't graph it out or make it in MS Project with dates, deadlines, and milestones. In no particular order.

• Visit Mom and Dad...silvers in Sept on the Kenai
• Paint 30 water colors
• Build house/Construction Co, w/Segondo
• Rent rooms in duplex (450/month each?)
• Go on a trip- JP in San Diego/SaraJane in St. Thomas/Vancouver
• Party in September most likely in Soldotna @ Mom and Dads

My Lil Corporate Chronicles

Last day of work will be 9/1/05.

Amazing enough the dumb fucks keep piling on the work. Later days dudes. OK had meetings with the CEO and the President. sounds really big but hell it is only an 80 man engr firm. The CEO was cool the President kinda pissed me off. "Uh well G I'm worried about U. You know your entire deferred compensation allocation becomes taxable as soon as you leave the company" Yada yada I just don't think he is talking in my best interest. The IRS has changed things???? His solution is for me to take a leave of absence until the first of the year then offer my letter of resignation to the Board. That way the deferred compensation isn't taxable next fiscal year. The problem with that solution is, that it delays my noncompete clause for another 4 months. meaning I can't do any engineering work in Alaska until 1/1/08. He's pretty slick .I just can't help but think the company will have to pay me the goods if I'm taxable. At the least by back the 850 shares of stock I own when I leave or deal with me.

The real bull shit is now I need to see a CPA and/or a damn lawyer. I just want to quit this FUCKING JOB. SHIT why the fuck is that so hard. I swear if the bastards screw me outta my deferred compensation I'll shut the mutha fuckers down. Steal clients, steal staff, I'll take over their lame limited market share. On a lighter note the rumours are on the street...Out of the blue I got a cold call for a job interview tomorrow. wooo hooo. I pays to be fuckin good at what you do and to be a homeboy in your hometown.

P.S. I get to keep the laptop. addiction satisfied.

My Lil Corporate Chronicles

Woo Hooo!! I did it!! I did it!!

Principal #1 and Principal#2
After several months of contemplation, I have come to the conclusion that my future direction and that of the company's are divergent and it is time for me to depart. It is time for a change. It has been a great 15 years plus with the company and I have no regrets and some sorrow to be departing. However, I also look forward to new challenges outside of, or if possible, beyond those of consulting engineering.

My last day at the company will be September 1st 2005, of course I can stay longer if need be but it is a good date because almost all of my projects will be near completion or ending the design phase and starting the CA phase. I'll follow up with a list of my current projects and my recommendations on whom should continue as lead/PM.

Sincerely
G-Daddy